prolonging the inevitable

I've just nominated a colleague for a very prestigious award. It wasn't like me to do that because I usually think of myself first. I would usually say that it's me who should be nominated for such awards. As I was composing my nomination letter, a realization suddenly struck me. I grasped that I'm no longer motivated to be the best at what I do.

It has been like that since the beginning of 2011. I have been telling myself that I will pick up my pace again, hopefully, before the year ended. Unfortunately, that did not happen.  I wasn't able to recover from my 'series of unfortunate events.' And I don't think I will anytime soon.

Maybe my motivation will no longer return. Maybe it is time for me to quit and start anew somewhere else. Or maybe I should just stop thinking.

a material world

During Christmas, you can tell who among your friends are materialistic… thanks to Facebook and Twitter. Immediately after checking my feeds, I was reminded of why I’m not a fan of social networking sites. I read 5 almost consecutive posts about the wonderful… insert really expensive gift here… that my friends received. At first, since I’m only human, my reaction was to be bitter, saying “Braggarts!” out loud (in our local dialect, of course.) But then, after calming down, I asked myself if maybe these friends were just too thankful for what they got and they want the whole world to know how appreciative they are.

Hmm... Yeah, right.

What say you? If by publicly announcing your gratitude for the new high-end and still-expensive iPhone 4s or the new top-of-the-line SUV you’ve received, are you really thankful? Or do you really just:

• want your friends to be jealous?
• want to satisfy your need to appear financially superior than others?
• insensitive of other’s feeling?
• all of the above.

I'm not bitter. Really.