fate, the unforgiving villain

She looked up to him with apologetic eyes and with a smile, she said "I'd love to go out with you sometime, but, unfortunately, I'm already seeing someone else."

Embarrassed and with blood slowly draining from his face, he tried regaining his composure. "Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't know." He flashed a weak smile, backed-up a couple of steps, and mindlessly turned around, almost hitting another guy passing by. "I'm sorry." He whispered to the guy. He then looked back at her direction. This time flashing a confident smile as he realized how funny he must have looked just now. He isn't usually that clumsy and he does have enough self-confidence to just brush the incident off so he just let out a chuckle.

She found him adorable as he laughed the tension in the air away. She laughed with him softly. There was something about him that she found interesting. "Maybe if things were a bit different, I guess it'd be cool."

"Yeah, I guess it would." He replied as he started walking away. "I'll see you around."

She watched him disappear in the crowd as her stare went blank. She kept silent for a minute or two for she knew there's something wrong.

Peter Wright

The Fleeting Little Life of Peter Wright

A few days ago, I ran into this video above. I am subscribed to one of its writers/directors, Sammy Paul, and I am a fan of his work. To be honest, I really can't make out some of the words because of their accent and the auto-generated subtitles are just weird - but for those dialogue that I was able to grasp, it left me thinking... what if this is it?

"Ultimately, it's all pointless; But then, what does that even mean? As a species, we seem obsessed with finding a purpose, a point to everything, but maybe there isn't one... or maybe there is and this is it."

Alright.

I grew tired of having to whine about the same crap over and over again so I just stopped. And so did my posts. 

Over the past few months, I think I've changed a little bit. Instead of ranting anonymously on an unknown blog that nobody reads, I chose to interact with real people. Yes, it's not usually like me but I do feel that it was about time for me to step out of my comfort zone and build relationships with real people.

"See what happens."

In my age, finding new friends is a real challenge. The best bonds are indeed formed when you are young. Unfortunately for me, I was a very proud a-hole back in the days. I never did took care and appreciated my friends because I had the mindset that I can just always replace them with new and better ones. 

I have never been so wrong. Well, there is no use crying over spilled milk. 

Anyway, I was able to gain new friends. Some were honest, some were casual, and some were just based on mutual parasitic symbiosis (I made that up. I forgot the correct scientific term. Haha.) For a time, I tried the "Yes Man" mentality and just exposed myself to a lot of different stuff. Technically, it wasn't really a lot since I don't have that much friends and I didn't actually get a lot of invites. But still, I gave my cynical introverted inner voice a rest and experienced life differently.

"See what happens."

Best Fight Scene Ever!

While binge watching my favorite TV shows, I came across this amazing fight scene from Marvel's Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D.

Skye's Amazing Single Shot Fight Scene
Wow. I had to watch this several times more. It's really bad ass!

I wonder how much effort was put into filming that. There were no cuts, and the choreography and timing had to be perfect. I hope this becomes the standard in fight scenes.

carry on

Haha... that's about it. Hahaha.... That's all that can come out of my mouth after re-reading my previous posts.

This is the very reason why I publish this blog. When I look back at the things that I've been doing, I either amaze myself or I just cringe in utter embarrassment.

They say history repeats itself. I believe it does. And 14 years of blog posts attests to that.

The good thing that comes out of documenting my blunders is that I get to reflect on the sh*t I've done and I can learn from them. It does feel good when I read a post I've written that I don't completely agree with anymore; It just means I learned something from it.

I went back to reading my blog after being idle for 5 months because I'm in the exact same situation now with my last post - but this time, with different characters. Surprisingly, sometimes, you yourself can be your source for enlightenment. (That. And the few close friends of mine are already tired of hearing the same predicaments over and over again so I really don't have a choice. Hehe...)

Yes, history does repeat itself if you don't take time to analyze what you've done wrong. It's a good thing that this time, I kinda' feel that the "past" me was wrong about my current dilemma.  So, Past Me, here's a video for you:

Kansas - Carry On Wayward Son
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I confess that I only heard this song from Supernatural, which I won't deny that I'm a fan of, but hey, cut me some slack, I wasn't even alive when this song came out.