back then, back now

I just remembered how playing the guitar makes my back hurt. After several years, thanks to the very ‘motivational’ talk I had with Chad, I’ve decided to pick up one and start studying it again. I never was good before and I don’t think I can be any better now. I know this because after attempting to play a Jack Johnson song for an hour, my back started aching again and I can’t seem to sit up straight anymore. I had to stop. The guitar is a bit small so I had to slouch whenever I play sitting. Maybe next time, I should have it slung across my back and just remain standing.

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Is it never too late to learn a musical instrument? I think I’ve tried almost all the basic ones. I had piano lessons as a child. I was given a guitar when I was 10 or 11. We got a drum set when I was in college. I tried studying, but I never got to be better at any of them. I like music a lot. Music just don’t like me. Haha… I just didn’t have the ear for it. I remember the feedback I got from my piano teacher back then; she said I was able to play all the songs because I memorized all the key combinations and the intervals upon which I should press them, and not because I understood the music. That is probably why I became an engineer. If only my logic can play good music.

sweet serendipity

It’s been a while since I felt this way again. I am thankful for all these little blessings that I’ve been given. From achievements, to new friends, to new inspirations and distractions, I am grateful for them all.

Everything does happen for a reason. I’m just thankful that a higher being is still watching over me despite my lack of faith.

Now, there’s only one last thing that I need to settle. It may be true that absence makes the heart grow fonder, but it is also true that absence can heal and mend wounds..

Some things may not actually be better together. Still… I will wait for things to fall into place and try to have a little more faith.