I was able to patch up the relationship I broke up yesterday. Although, however I may dress up the wounds, its scars will always be there.
What happened yesterday got me thinking - Am I investing on the right people? I've been giving them all my time and attention but during the times when I needed them the most, I had to exert effort just to get them to comfort me. If I needed to give out something first, I would have instead paid a prostitute to give me pretentious affections, false flattering and shallow physical satisfaction. Honestly, that would have cheered me up better.
I'm not referring to all of my friends here. Someone at the office offered to listen, which is what I needed that time. Some, even when far away, would get out of their way just to go online and chat with me. An old friend, who I lost contact with over the months, made an effort to ask me how I was doing over dinner and beer. Even you took time to read my posts. Perhaps I'm really investing on the wrong set of people.
As for my recuperating relationship, after we fixed things up yesterday, I was told, "I will make it up to you." Problem is, I'm the type of person who doesn't forgive and forget easily. Like with most patient people, we don't get hurt easily but once we do get hurt, our shields will be up 200 percent.
2 comments:
I never thought that you have a 'madrama, sensitve and melancholy' side. Somehow I wish that I knew who are these people that you are talking about. I mean, here at the office, you're always laughing and there to lend a hand sa mga makukulit n L1. Myself included.
I just hope that whatever you're dealing with, it will all be better in the end. Whatever that is.
And you have so many things to be happy about so don't frown, ndi bagay sayo. weheheh =)
Minsan lang to.. pagbigyan nyo na ko. Hahaha.
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