Okay, here's the plan... I'll sneak in, get the money and I'll run the hell out of there and never look back. Or, I could just go to work and try to live an ordinary life. Hmmm...
I'm in between dilemmas. As if one is not enough, I have to suffer multiple nested dilemmas, where one dilemma is within another dilemma. I'm thinking whether I should stay with or leave my job. If I stayed, should I transfer to another department, or should I just remain (unhappy) on my current status? If I left, should I help in our family business, or should I focus on other jobs? Well, as a basis for my decision, I chose to consult my ever reliable horoscope. It said something like, ‘the easy way is not the right path to growth.’ Yep, my horoscope said that. Check it out yourself. Its on Philippine Star, August 9, 2002, Capricorn.
Some help! If I took the really hard road, I'll be making the wrong decision and I'll be wasting my life trying to know what growth means! Here’s what I say: choose the happy road and you won't grow ugly. You'll be enjoying what you do and you'll get to sleep 8 hours a day - at the right time.
Tomorrow, I'll ask my supervisor to let me transfer to another department. They said that Web Dev will be having an opening soon. Yehey! For the meantime, I'll settle for the Associate for System Administration position, that is if my supervisor will let me transfer, of course. If she won't let me (my supervisor is a powerpuff, I've heard), then, I'll just resign. It's their loss. Mawawalan ng matalino sa GTS... ay... mali... madaming magagalit... hehe... mawawalan nalang ng, uhm, matangkad sa GTS.
Kheiy said that its because its my first job why I'm acting this way. She told me that as time passes by, I won't care whether I'm friends with my co-workers. When I get exposed more, I'll barely notice the people around me and all that is important is that I'm getting paid. Liza told me that I'm weird because I'm the one who passed the tech training and I'm the one threatening to resign. Karl on the other hand, said: "Nagpapakahirap ako para sa walang kwenta." And on that one, I'll have to agree with him. Although the context is very different (he's still training), I still believe that it is applicable to my situation. Why would I pressure myself in something I'm not happy with. I should be pressuring myself in doing something I like! Like sleeping. Uy, Corinne, what is the job description for the porn site blockers... I want to go there instead. Hehe... I envy those people, they are getting paid to browse porn sites.
Anyway, as you can see, I now have the time to update my site again. That is because I called in sick today. I'm not in the mood for meeting new people today.