an unusual ally

It only took you ten days to rattle my world.

Ten nights. Through ten sleepless nights, I've learned how to hope for the better. With the usual pessimism and cynical disposition wiped off of my system, I've learned that I was actually capable of dreaming about a future that have always seemed impossible. Ten sleepless nights were all it took to make me believe that life can get even better with you.

Ten cups. Through ten cups of coffee and tea, I've learned how to remove all self-consciousness. A cup of Joe, your listening ear, and a very entertaining "couple" were all it took to make me speak my mind without hesitation. Unafraid of judgment and discrimination, my self-esteem got the boost that it desperately needed. With a cup in my hand and the sound of our laughter, I've never felt so happy being honest.

Ten fingers. Through ten fingers intertwined, I've learned how to focus on what's real. A gentle but firm grip between two hands was all it took to teach me the difference between what's "made up in my mind" and what's real and in front of me. With a tight squeeze that jolts me back to the real world, I've learned to accept that while it is not bad to dream, it is also not bad to know what's really going on and how it really is. I've learned that no matter how much I repeat to you what I wanted to happen, some things just can't change and must be accepted as it is.

Ten days. Ten days were all that's needed to alter the course of my life. I was on a rough patch and I was on the verge of giving up, but in ten days, you've managed to set me straight. In ten days you've helped me in ways you don't even know.

And in ten days, you are gone.

I may not know what will happen in the future but I know that I can wait ten lifetimes for you to come back. It may not be in this lifetime or the next, but I know, one day, things will go our way, my unusual ally.