This will be the last time that I will check if you are there. This will be the last time I'll be guessing what you are doing. This will be the last time that I'll try to figure out what happened between us.

Sometimes, there really are things that we cannot comprehend on our own. Sometimes, all it takes is to simply talk and discuss whatever it is that needs to be discussed.

I have been told several times that if our pride stops us from reaching out, we must learn how to be humble as humility really can do wonders. If anger clouds our judgment, we must teach ourselves how to be a bit more understanding and patient so that we can be the ones to ask for forgiveness. I am a slow learner. I know that I really have been doing my best but sometimes, we just hit bumps on the road that makes it really hard for us to do the right things.

We all have been wrong at one time. We all have done things that we've been ashamed of. We know this and we know that we are not always the victim. I myself have been guilty of so many wrongdoings and I have been really sorry for all those.

It's ironic and pretentious that today, I will not be the one doing the right thing. One day you will forgive me for not trying harder and one day we will just laugh at all these. One day I will be stronger - strong enough to overcome any obstacle that may come my way.

Unfortunately, today is not that day. Today, I will remain the selfish victim.

This will be the last time that I will show myself to you, waiting for something that I know will not happen.

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Hey, this is serious. Please don't laugh. :)